prayer from a friend:

Dearest Jen, I understand that you need immediate mercy to able to get through the shock and trauma.  The Holy Spirit is able to release the prayer you need that is inside you.  Jesus 'groaned' with grief.  Sometimes that is all you can do at this time.  We are praying for God to put you all in a 'bubble' of grace to help you get through these initial days.  We pray that in His great mercy, the Holy Spirit carries the weight of this trauma that has hit you like a semi-truck.  We are praying that no evil 'spirit' of grief and sorrow can swollow you all up.  We also pray for God to bring you supernatural ease, comfort, and peace that you cannot have at this time on your own.  We pray also that you have help to handle all the logistics of this.  We ask God to help you all go through the  'normal' stages of grief in that bubble of His love and not get stuck in any one place.  Most of all, we pray that you physically feel Gods arms around you holding you and Kate and Charlie close to His heartbeat, so that you don't feel so alone and lost in this fog of grief.    Please know we are weeping with you.  We love you and miss you.  It is good that you are with your family.   Jen, you know you did the best you could.  He knew how much you loved him.  This was not in your control.  Please have peace about that.  You loved him well.